How can I feel freedom when I Feel trapped, anxious, and numb?
Feeling scared about the future. As I cry the tears of our ancestors as they were leaving Egypt. We remember the bitterness as we go through this journey and the bitterness we feel with every piece of bad news we receive.
We are building our family but somehow it doesn’t feel like it’ll ever happen. As I sit around the Seder table hearing my nieces and nephews sing the “mah nishtana” I will continue to ask myself the question of “when will it be my turn?”
When will my child get to sing the “mah nishtana”? We put in so much effort to paste a smile on our faces and pretend like everything is okay.
As our friends and family offer to assist us, it can be seen as the zeroa (shank bone), a symbol of strength/support. Our friends are doing this with outstretched arms. It’s about offering support to others and showing you care.
We are still dealing with our own personal yitziat mitzrayim (exodus from Egypt) and I hope and pray that Hashem (God) will give us the energy to cope with it. To continue pushing forward just like our ancestors have done for ages.
I pray for those seeking their personal freedom right now. And as I cry during Pesach I will remember the tears of our ancestors.
I will think of all the chametz I need to get rid of this year. As we clean our homes but we also work to clean our souls. Looking deep inside and asking Hashem for what we need. Praying that maybe just maybe Hashem will give us our freedom.