For a long time I have wanted to write about my journey through infertility. I have spoken at events multiple times about what my husband and I went through in order to grow our family. People have asked me to turn my speech into several blog posts, but I wanted it to be different. I wanted it to be more raw and personal. Every time I sat down to write a post, I was either angry, depressed, shocked, or a combination of all three. The essays I would write would show that emotion. I know people want that raw authenticity, and I want to give you my emotions in the moment, but not the venting tirade I went on after.
So today I am going to start writing about my experience. How we got our beautiful daughter Adeline, and the struggles we face now in our attempts to give Adeline a sibling. The journey through infertility unfortunately never ends, and so I know I will constantly have new feelings and struggles about it for the rest of my life. Some of you may think, wow she should really just come to terms with it and get over it. I have come to terms with it. It took me a long time, but I have accepted this as the fate that my husband and I have to face in order to build the family we have dreamed of. Coming to terms with a life situation, does not mean that one is not allowed to be frustrated, saddened, or angry by it at the same time. Emotions are a tricky thing and they are constantly changing and evolving, and the way a person’s body works is also constantly changing. A treatment that may have worked once may no longer work this time around.
My goal in these blog posts is to take you through our journey and how we responded to different situations and grew together, individually, and adapted to what the universe threw our way. In no way are these posts meant to be a guideline for how others should proceed through their treatment, but rather as a source of comfort for those going through their own infertility journey, and as a resource for family and friends of infertility warriors on why someone may be reacting a certain way, and how you can change your expectations of others in order to support each other best.
Please read, enjoy, and reach out for any support I may be able to give you!
Thank you for joining me on this journey,
Avigayil
