Infertility

Mother’s day is a hard day for me. My childhood home was a house where every day was Mother’s day (and our mother would remind us of that!). I lost my mother when I was newly engaged, the most exhilarating and stressful time of my life. Losing a parent at any point in one’s existence […]

I’m sitting cross legged on the floor with my childhood friend Robin; two pre-teens pinching each other, wondering Are we really here, or Is this a dream? How would we know the difference? What will I be when I grow up?  Have I already met my husband?  What will our children be like? I’m 37 […]

I remember learning how the Imahot (the Matriarchs) struggled to have children, how Chana yearned for sons. Teacher after teacher would explain that Hashem gives us struggles because He wants our prayers. He wants our soul, our heartfelt prayer! Well here goes nothing: Hashem, please make this month the last. Please let me be the […]

I navigated infertility, and thank God, after the many ups and downs, I now have 4 children. I still speak openly, to anyone who will listen, in the hopes that my story may help others on their fertility journeys. I AM NOT A DOCTOR. I write that in bold because I do not dispense medical […]

Sixteen months ago I walked arm in arm with my parents with slow and steady steps to my Chupah to meet my beloved under a canopy of white. Sixteen months ago I walked around him seven times, seven circles of envelopment, seven turns of intimacy and of building a home together. Sixteen months ago we […]

When I was younger I would look forward to Sundays. It was the day my family would do fun things together, maybe see my cousins, or go shopping and out for lunch. But as I got older, Sundays just didn’t have the same value. I remember when I was single, Sunday would seem like a […]